I don't know what is happening with me. Last days are so strange, lazy and full of loneliness. In work is good, but when I'm coming back from work, then I strat feel depressed. I can stay all the time in bed, and listening to music. Sometimes go to supermarket or watch TV. Nothing else. I don't even have anybody to speak with. Everybody are far away I don't have any friend here, and anydbody who can understand what is happening in my soul.

I don't even remember when I was last time took some good photographs. In past I was going to city and make a lot of good shots. And now? Nothing.

I think that in two months I will come back to Poland, but i'm very afraid about this. I was living so long here. But what I have here? Nothing. I don't see future for me in this country, but I don't also see future for me in Poland.

Maybe when spring will start then I will feel much better. I hope, because I'm getting more mad every day.

Only two months. Sometimes changes and runing away is the best.